i can't keep on loving you and missing you its killing me,
breaking me into tiny pieces that are too microscopic to fit back together.
every single day i just remember what we were like together.
i find myself smiling at the memory
and then find myself wanting to scream and cry
because it hurts so much.
what i wouldn't do for one more day like that with you.

Though I seem to feel that,
with time,
I have no right to miss you,
I still think of you often.
I refuse to talk about you to anyone,
but why?
I’m not sure,
and if that offends or angers you,
I’m sorry.
I’m just scared of the truth.
I’ve even lied,
in this sad attempt to think that you may come back to me one day..
but the truth is cold and heartless,
and it’s that you are gone.
you’ll be with me like a handprint on my heart…
and now whatever way our stories end,
I know you have re-written mine by being my friend:
Like a ship blown from its mooring by a wind off the sea,
like a seed dropped by a skybird in a distant wood;
who can say if I’ve been changed for the better,
but because I knew you I have been changed for good.”

Can you please get out of my head
You have been in it for weeks now,
and I need some space.
I can’t stop thinking about you and its insane.
I need to see you face to face,
right now,
i need to talk to you about what I said,
I need to get this all off my chest
and I need to have a decent conversation with you.
I miss you ,
I do,
and it’s ridiculous.
When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now…

thinking of you,
wishing you were with me,
listening to songs…
this is my night.
for now.
soon, a new day will begin…
and i will see you again,
only to be forced by a force unseen to turn away and walk in the opposite direction.
of course,
this happens every day…
but it never gets old and that’s not a good thing,
but it still is sort of a good thing.
i’m never going to tire of seeing you,
but the thing is,
i hate turning away from you.
on nights like these,
when i’m sitting here
with a drink and my computer screen
it’s nice to be able to lean back in my rolling desk chair
and as i tip casually,
think about you.
the worst part of thinking about you
is probably the moment
where i realize i still have work to do or i mess up…
whoops, too late.

I keep that picture of you on my cell phone for 3 reasons.
1) So I can see your wonderful smile, which I miss dearly.
2) To recapture those moments where it was just you, me, and that infinite feeling.
3) To remind myself of why I’m still holding onto you, even with all the complications.

I don't want to remember anymore.
I don't want to hurt anymore.
I don't want to remember what we shared,
all the love there,
it's killing me.
I can't go on like this.
It's tearing me apart.
Please just let me forget her.
Let me let go of her.

Because when I think of you,
I don't feel so alone.
“I miss you when something really good happens,
because you are the one I want to share it with.
I miss you when something is troubling me,
because you are the one who understands me well.
I miss you when I laugh and cry
because i know that you are the one
that makes my laughter grow and my tears disappear.
I miss you all the time,
but I miss you most
when i lay awake at night
and think of all the wonderful times we spent with each other;
for those were some of the best times of my life.”

You make me happier than anyone or anything has ever been able to.
Just you.
You have no idea how much I wish I could give you the stars…
I can’t promise
that I can make all the bad in world go away for you;
but what I can promise
is to stay beside you when you needed someone most...
i’ve never let you go.
You mean too much to me to let myself fall away like that.
I can’t read your mind, nor am I able to sway your thoughts.
But I do love you.
More than these words can show.
After all this while,
each time I hear your name
or anything related to you;
my heart would skip a beat and
I’d catch my breath..
I’d be telling a lie
if I I told you I don’t miss you,
because I really really do miss you..
If only,
it were so easy to tell you this..
But things are never as easy as it seems..

went to the mall today,
i love seeing things that remind me of you.
just love it…
and just when i thought i was doing splendidly well.
just when i thought i was okay with this invisible..thing..between us…
i start missing you like you were mine.

“i’ve never been contented with the word ILY…
for i got no idea for its meaning.…..
it could be I LOVE YOU„………
or it could be I’M LEAVING YOU..”

When I miss you,
sometimes I listen to music or look at pictures of you,
not to remind me of you
but to make me feel as if I’m with you.
It makes me forget the distance and capture you.

Goodnight my dear....~ sleep tight....
sweet dreams...
ILY....IMY

Labels: been listening to the same song over and over because it reminds me of you