Today was one of those days
I just kept and kept on thinking about her.
I looked at pictures of her.
Those soulful eyes, that aura of pride she emits.
It made me smile.
And cry.
And cry.
My heart and soul start to ache more and more again.
The past 2 or so weeks I have been resistant towards any feelings whatsoever;
I felt cold, cold and slick like a frozen lake.
Yet scars never vanish.
Just like the image of her that flickers through my mind at all times.
I wish I could tell her how terribly, terribly much I still love her.
Don’t fall apart on me tonight,
Yesterday’s just a memory,
Tomorrow is never what it’s supposed to be
And I need you.”
Through this hole in my chest
I can feel
That so much in this world isn’t real
And there’s something that you cannot steal
Tell me what can I do
I need you
I don’t need a lot of things
I can get by with nothing
Of all the blessings life can bring
I’ve always needed something
But I’ve got all I want
When it comes to loving You
You’re my only reason
You’re my only truth
I need you like water
Like breath,
like rain
I need you like mercy
From heaven’s gate
There’s a freedom
in Your arms
That carries me through
I need You
You’re the hope that moves me
To courage again
You’re the love that rescues me
When the cold winds, rage
And it’s so amazing‘
Cause that’s just how You are
And I can’t turn back now
‘Cause You’ve brought me too far
I need You like water
Like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy
From heaven’s gate
There’s a freedom in Your arms
That carries me through
I need You
Oh yes I do
I need You like water
Like breath, like rain
I need You like mercy
From heaven’s gate
There’s a freedom in Your arms
That carries me through
I need You
Oh yes I do
I need You
I need You
what is it about you.
what makes ordinary you so special.
every second of the last couple of weeks i havnt been able to get you out of my head.
every message i recieve i hope its you.
whenever i’m out i look for you,
knowing full well you wont be there.
when i check to see who’s online the first name i look for is yours,
just so i know what you’re doing.
why is it that you’ve managed to change me?
something which no one else has ever succeeded in.
i’m such a fool for you.
i tell you how i feel!
every little detail about whats going on inside,
i’ve never done that.
you make my head spin.
i hate you and love you all at once.
you always say the perfect things.
words are like knives in your hands,
but they make me melt,
you have a special way with them.
i get this indescribable feeling in my stomach.
so cliche?
i know.
its like severe pins and needles,
or that buzzing jolt you feel when you go too high on the swings,
or when the plane is just lifting off into the sky.
this never happens to me,
and i don’t think you understand.
karma has come back and hit me where it hurts.
my life now revolves around constant confusion and thoughts of you.
who’d have thought you’d be the one to build me up into this new person
and then end up shooting me down.
yet im still persuing,
i can’t stop.
i know this, clear as day.
you’ll end up ripping my heart out and cutting it into lots of tiny pieces.
i know you won’t mean to..
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