Hey readers...
I don't know why...
But today,
this post....
it's dedicated to my mom....
I know that she dosen't read my blog,
but...
mom....there's always words that i might not say to you personally...
cauz i find it awkward...
I may be saying I Love You, Mummy
an infinity times....
that when i say it again you would feel bored..
But,
mom...today,
i'm gonna blog this post, just for you...
I hope you can feel...what i feel...

Dear mommy,
it's been 2 years i've been with you and daddy...
Mom, these 2 years...
It must have been hard on you...
From all these while which i have been fetching you from work...
You never fail to give me a smile,
eventhough you're so exhausted after work ebery single day...
Last year especially...
you're pregnant with meimei...
Even lifting up your legs to walk seems to be a chore...
But you worked....
worked soo hard....till so late..
Sometimes, you even skip your lunch/dinner..
just to work...
When meimei began to grow bigger day by day in your stomach...
you told me that having a huge stomach infront of you,
is just like lifting weights...
You legs are swollen...you could hardly breathe properly..
at that point of time...
i wished i could help you do something...
but i can't...i did not know wad to do either..
till that day,
you have to leave to Malacca urgently,
cauz meimei seemed to be wanting to see this world eagerly...
that day,
i know..you sulked...
so did i...
I remembered,
Daddy sending me this message in the clinic..
"If mommy have to leave for Malacca urgently after check-up
don't be sad...don't cry...
cauz if you cry...momy will be sad.."
when i saw this message...
Dad look at me in the eye,
and wave his hands to me..
"Come ah-bee....sit with mommy..."
I didn't want to to move right next to her..
cauz, the closer i sit,
the harder for me to see her go..
After exitting the doctor's room.....
Mom looked at me...
I looked at Mom...
Dad looked at me...
He said:"Mommy's going home today..
Cauz meimei's coming out soon"

Then again,
Mom never fail to give me a smile...
She smiled at me and said
"Come baby, let's go shop for groceries....
Mommy will cook with you okkay?"
As meimei was Dad's first child...
He was anxious that meimei would arrive anytime...
He pulled mum's sleeve..
but mum just gave him a smile...
and held my hands tight...
When we reached home...
Dad went out to the money changer...
Mum & I was at home...
at that point of time...
It was so silent...
i teared non-stop....
I knew....
mom....
she teared too...
After finished cooking...
i scooped 2 teaspoon of rice onto my plate...
i couldn't eat...
i had no mood at all...
mum kept scooping food into my bowl...
but it wasn't much touched ...
When it was time for mum to leave...
She tried to hold the time back..
she told daddy to retrieve the car himself...
then,
mom sat down next to me and held me hands..
placed it onto her tummy....
stroked it...
and said..
"Baby....remember how you used to teach meimei ABC 123?
now... teach meimei...the last time...will you?"
I cried and with a wobbly sound i said..
"mei..mei...you~...must remeber...jie..jie...te..ach ..you...
..............."
Then "honk honk"
Daddy's car came...
my heart shattered..
Mum hugged me..
so tight...she said:'Wait for mommy to be back...
2 months....it's gonna end in a blink..
I Love You"
After mom went into the car...
I ran all the way home without looking back at all..
THen i received a message from dad..
"You made mommy cry...."
You see mom.....
I remembered every single thing that happened between us..
and I Love You Mom...

Now....i've grown 2 years older...
I still see the usual smile on your face..
But i know mum...
Behind your smile...
i know you're struggling...
struggling hard to work and earn money to feed your family...
I know you're feeling down...
which mom, dosen't feel down when their own blood-child are miles away?
Hey Mom,
I’ll always try to be strong for you,
I want to be your source of strength
and I want to ease your pain…
you once said that you felt so tired ...
and you felt like giving up..
I know how tired you are by looking at your hands,
they were so smooth before...
but now.. the aren't anymore..
everytime i see scratches on your hands..
it pains me...caus i knew you've exceeded wad you could have done...
That night at Malacca...
you were so sick...
you could hardly keep your eyes open,
but it was meimei's 1st birthday...
You habged in there...
you served people with a braod smile...
I know you are tired...
but i can't do anything to help...
Sleepless, I tried to accompany you and kept whispering all prayers on your ear…
Hoping you'll get better the next day...
But you didn't ...
my prayers didn't work..
Mom,
Having a mother like you while growing up was the greatest gift and biggest advantage anyone could ever have given me.
It is because of the confidence and values that you instilled in me that made me who I am today. Thank you for shaping me into a person who I like
and am proud to be.
Thank you letting me believe that I could be whoever I wanted to be, do whatever I wanted to do, there were no limitations except our drive, ambition and creativity
Thank you for always having hope for me when I didn’t have for myself
Thank you for telling me not to give up when I said I couldn’t do it any more
Thank you for never giving up on me when I went through that dark period, when I shut every one out of my life.
When loving me must have been like trying to hold a cactus.
Thank you for loving me through all of my rejections of help and love
Thank you for sending me text messages "thinking of you, I love you”.
Thank you Mom, every message helped me so much.
Thank you thank you thank you. For a million things, for everything. I don’t know what I would do without you. There are so many many more things, small things, big things.
Thank you mommy, I love you, more than words can ever express.

GOD made a wonderful mother,
A mother who never grows old;
He made her smile of the sunshine,
And He molded her heart of pure gold;
In her eyes He placed bright shining stars,
In her cheeks, fair roses you see;
God made a wonderful mother,
And He gave that dear mother to me.

Mom,
You filled my days with rainbow lights,
fairytales and sweet dream nights,
A kiss to wipe away my tears,
Gingerbread to ease my fears.
You gave the gift of life to me,
And then in love,
you set me free.
I thank you for your tender care,
for deep warm hugs and being there.
I hope that when you think of me,
A part of you, you'll always see.